Sore neck rant
As i restlessly lie in bed on a Friday evening things tumble and roll inside my head. The feast is going to be awesome. Anyone reading this who went to the feast that was held two summers ago will remember it very clearly. Food, laughter, and smiles were abundant. It’s one of the times i can really reflect on and smile about.
I just recently moved into my apartment. It’s a nice place in Farmington, Maine. I’ll be glad to be away from Oxford Hills and all of its drama when i finally move the rest of my things out there. I feel as though no one here other than my family will care when I leave, and I cannot wait to be gone. I will miss some things such as a warm camp fire on a cold night, but i will not miss many of the people and their endless thirst to be the center of attention or their need to be little everyone around them.
The pinched nerve in my neck leaves my head feeling slightly foggy though it may in fact be the muscle relaxers i took an hour ago, though I continue to type stubburnly anyways.
Just like many other people on here I have/had many dreams. I want to coach soccer when i’m a bit older, my inner nerd really wants to make let’s plays for different video games and post them on youtube. I’d like a family and kids some day just like many other people. Most of all though i’d like to see the people I care for succeed. People seem to think that I do not see the big picture. That my actions are based on the now and not on the future. The truth is nearly everything I do has some reason behind it, in fact those reasons usually include not only my future but the people around me.
For example I have a little cousin. I am always straight forward with him about everything. Not because I want him to know things ahead of time but so that he wont feel alone as he grows up. My greatest wishes involving him are that he not only finds a way to understands that when i tell him something on the soccer field that i want him to realize im talking about life when i say you should never be afraid of what’s in front of you. I want him to realize that too many people where a mask and hide when they do something good and are shamed by it, and too many people stand in the spotlight and do terrible things when they have it on them. I want him to realize his character is the most important thing. (Oh and that im proud of the young adult he’s growing into. But he’ll never see this so it’s ok to bring it up on here.)
yeah I’v made a made my friends, family and complete strangers mad(who hasn’t) but it’s usually in an effort to teach them something, but not everyone can be taught. When people are wrong there feelings get hurt and im sorry but it’s not my job to worry about your feelings in such a fast paced world. Yeah im a caring individual who can be a complete ass sometimes, but the truth is if I hurt you I really feel terrible about it.
There’s also this situation where you have a ton of people who tell you “you’re not a super hero you cant do everything” and then when you make a mistake they get mad at you. Or if you fail at something the very same people will rub it in your face.
Yeah there are tons of good people out there but my theory is that people are so bitter about there own short comings that instead of trying to do better they just want people to do worse so that they can keep being lazy. Hats off to you over achievers for refusing to say no and continuing to be who we all wish we were.
Ok so its a long post and rant and im sry if your bored and i appreciate you if you read it all. Thnx.
RP
Happy New Year
So, it’s a new year, with some new things. Lets start with some of the old things that will change. Health, lets not tear a muscle or need another surgery. Lets not let a doctor mess up a diagnoses he makes with a guess.
Relationship: yeah im in one now. Im content but nothings perfect and things can always change for the better, and for the worse. Only time can tell.
Education: Yeah back at UMF and things are definitely looking like they are going to keep improving. New room mate too so things cant go to much better for me there.
People: ive made some changes but most things have remained the same. Those still struggling with whats right and wrong have taken the back seat to those people that know when to stop and see they are making a poor choice (thanks Guys).
As for friends of the past (certain ones, you’ll always hold that place you wanted to be in. On the bottom).
Many happy returns guys happy new year
